GJ - 04/24/26
Yesterday, I realized that I was in a terrible mood ever since the morning time. A feeling of sluggishness - where, it felt as though my life was going nowhere. Later, I realized that this feeling of discontent was triggered by the news that my coworker will be enlisting into the army by the end of this month. Normally, this is no great "news". Thank you for choosing to serve! But I believe that the "pinch point" was (A) who it was, and (B) how it compared to me. I know that comparison is the thief of joy. But here's why it stung more. A is not any normal coworker - he was one that I often compared myself to. Partly because, the girl that I had been interested in, had fallen for him the first day that she began working here (in secret). (The whole explanation is a bit too long to compress). Long story short - she left the company, and (might be) still meeting with him. Talk about a sting to the heart. Second - it felt as though some of us had plans for the f...