Stability

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 Recently, I've been anxious more than ever. When I try to sit on it, it becomes quite apparent:

-news of my boss, potentially retiring (job security)

-moving into a new place (good, but also - stress of rent / money)

-moving out of my current place (good, but also - a TON of moving crap)

-ongoing visa situation

-my school deciding to close down in the coming semester (tied to ongoing visa situation)

-uncertainty about my future / what I want to do

-personal add problems (you know) 


All of these, when written down, help me to organize my thoughts (just a tiny bit). All that I want is this: to find stable ground, where I know, to an extent, what I have, what is to come, and what is safe. 

Trying to juggle multiple thoughts in one is what's driving me up the wall of uncertainty.

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